Tuesday, March 31, 2009


I probably shouldn't even publish this post because it will be nothing but "poor pitiful me"...but I just have to get all of this off my chest. I don't think anyone reads my blog anyway...but if you are reading and you don't want to hear me gripe and complain, then stop reading now.

I am not having a very good day. What seems to be bothering me the most is the fact that I just went through something very difficult and instead of feeling supported, I feel completely alone. It's really weird. I feel invisible...just like I don't exist. Something happened to me Sunday at church, and ever since...I have been down in the dumps. This is how the conversation went:

"You didn't tell me you were expecting!"

(me) "I lost the baby."

"I know...so in so told me...were ya'll trying?"

(me) "We were surprised, but yes, we wanted another baby"

"Well, you can try again"

(me) "We haven't decided yet. I have had 3 miscarriages, so I don't know if I want to go through that again."

"Really? I didn't know that! Well at least you have two healthy children."

(me) "yes, that's true."

"I was praying for you. I know I didn't call you, but things have been crazy."

(me) "I appreciate the prayers."

Now how would that make YOU feel?

Ever since I lost the baby, I feel like I have the plague! Instead of drawing others closer, it seems to have pushed people away.

What can I learn from this? The fact that I will ALWAYS have God, my husband, my kids, and my immediate family even when no one else seems to care. And to be honest, I don't "need" anybody else. I am learning to be happy and content and to focus more on my family.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Bad Hair Day

Do you ever have one of those? I do...a lot! On this particular day, I washed my son's hair the night before and apparently it wasn't dry when he went to bed. For the next TWO days his hair would NOT LAY FLAT!!! Below are some pictures for your enjoyment. Have a great day!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Interview with Mom

I got this meme from my friend, Michele. Kids are honest. What do your kids have to say about you? Ask your child(ren) the following questions, and post their answers, even if you don't like them.

Beth is 7 and Avery is only 22 months, so I didn't get his answers!

1. What is something your mom always says to you?
We have to do school

2. What makes your mom happy?
When we give cards to her

3. What makes your mom sad?
When me and Avery fuss

4. How does your mom make you laugh?
By tickling me

5. What was your mom like as a child?
Hmmm....I don't really know.

6. How old is your mom?
32...put 32 'cause it's almost your birthday

7. How tall is your mom?
5 feet

8. What is her favorite thing to do?
You have a bunch of favorites! Tickle Daddy

9. What does your mom do when you're not around?
I don't really know 'cause I'm not around to see

10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
I don't really know that question...could be ANYTHING!

11. What is your mom really good at?
Taking care of me and Avery

12. What is your mom not very good at?
Probably doing puzzles

13. What does your mom do for a job?
To take care of me and Avery

14. What is your mom's favorite food?
Chicken Cordon Bleu

15. What makes you proud of your mom?
That I get to play with her

16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
Probably the Mom on Phineas and Ferb

17. What do you and your mom do together?
Sometimes we color

18. How are you and your mom the same?
We look the same

19. How are you and your mom different?
I don't have glasses

20. How do you know your mom loves you?
She just does

21. What does your mom like most about your dad?
He cooks for her

22. Where is your mom's favorite place to go?
Shopping at the Outlet Mall

If you're reading this...consider yourself tagged!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Short and Sweet

First of all, thank you to all my friends and family for praying so hard for this sweet baby. Unfortunately, we miscarried Friday. I am not up to posting the details, but just know that we are at peace with everything. I did go ahead with a D & C Friday night and I am recovering from that as well.

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for all your prayers and concern. I love you all.